GRACE.

The sweet nectar of the divine.

The essence of the GREAT STILLNESS and presence that love is, that joy is, that peace is.

As I recognize and celebrate it more and more throughout my days, it comes to bless me more and more.

As I ride out the waves of illusion, choosing not to take action (lash out, victim consciousness, blame, criticism) and instead be with the great presence that is my anchor... I come home.

I tame the wild storm of illusion and ego and I slay the demons in my mind.

Peace! Be still.

I come through it and return home easily and readily - knowing that I may be pulled back down. I may have to start over and ride out the next wave… and welcome grace back in... to soothe and nourish and breathe life into me.

I accept my human-ness. I love my human-ness.

I know that it is part of the play, the game of life, but it is not ME. And I know that this illusion continues to lose its power as I become more familiar with this play.

I watch and observe, notice and remain connected to my anchor and truth… with grace available to me at all times.

Let there be grace.

Let grace descend upon each one of us. Right here and now.

Om.

Dear One,

Has grace blessed your life recently? Can you recall the last time that you felt the wave of grace wash over you? A moment where you felt instantly lighter, less loaded, and more free in your body, mind and heart?

Have you experienced grace while in the midst of a crisis or during a dark night of the soul?

I have found myself in unfamiliar flavors of darkness on and off over the past 3-4 years that I hadn’t previously experienced in my life. In the beginning it was difficult to make sense of it all. I just knew that I felt heartbroken, lost and confused.

I know now that as I go through these waves, a part of me is dying. I have been experiencing small deaths. Call them “ego deaths” or “deaths of the false self”, if you wish.

I have been thrust into an inner battle that at times leaves me feeling broken, battered and exhausted.

The battle was led by my ego and higher self. My ego brought out the ammunition and swords and what seemed like impenetrable armor.

Circumstances all fell into the most perfect place for this battle to occur, over and over again, and at the time I felt like I was trapped inside a washing machine.

Everything in my life that was important to me was falling and shifting and so many things were not working. This continues in my life and perhaps you can relate to these battles and deaths.

I continue to feel as though I am in a birth canal and I tell myself again and again to hold on and trust.

And sometimes it feels as if the hits just kept coming.

My savior?

Besides all of the earth angels in my life who continue to help me navigate through emotions, thoughts, worries, and fear… besides the tools and wisdom to endure and overcome that I possess, is GRACE.

I’ve had the most magical experiences of grace over this transformative time which continue to breathe life back into my cells and nervous system.

Grace comes in the form of dear friends and family who rallied around me.

Grace comes in the form of therapy and spiritual mentoring which helps me see the bigger picture of what was and is happening in my life.

Grace comes in the form of my higher self sending me messages and reminders (in countless ways) about who I truly am.

Grace lifted and continues to lift me out of the darkness.

Sometimes for a breath. Sometimes for an hour. Sometimes for an entire day.

I have been given tools to process my emotions and experiences. I have had to revisit past traumas which were reactivated and needed more attention and healing.

I have discovered new teachers, poems, books and art that seemed to be created just for me and what I was/am going through.

Grace keeps coming.

Slowly at first, and then as my ego settles down she comes more and more often.

Now I breathe her in every day, multiple times per day and I cannot express the gratitude and relief that I feel.

One thing I know is this… the hits may continue to come. Things may fall apart more and more as I continue to say “yes” to transformation and growth.

I know that I am not the same person that I was. I have been (and continue to be) equipped with new tools. I have been taken on a journey outside of myself and can appreciate the bigger picture. I have a new relationship with my ego, my shadows and darkness, and I know why I am here. I know why have needed to experience these many small inner deaths.

I can feel deep in my bones where all of it leads me…to complete and udder self-love, self-acceptance, self-respect, and self-realization.

My intuition and heart space are clearer and more open and I am the most willing I’ve ever been to continue on this journey of surrender and trust.

BRING IT ON. Grace accompanies me wherever I go.

I know that many shifts and transformations are happening for all of us, and that Grace is available in the midst of whatever darkness, shadows, and illusions are present.

Trust, dear one. You are equipped. You are on the right path and you are forever supported and loved!

In the name of Grace,

~ Lisa